darkandweird

I tried to be nice
I tried to be civil
But your making this really hard
I want to be close to you
I want to be your friend
But your making this really hard
I want to forget
I want to forgive
But your making this really hard
I wish things were never said
I wish things were never done
But I am making this really hard
I miss being there for you
I miss you being there for me
But I am making this really hard
I never want to be around you
You never want to be around me
But we are making this really hard
I don't want to make this really hard
I don't want you to make this really hard
But we are making this really hard

is sex beeter when your drunk?

So Saturday Kerla and Hemis came over for a spending night funness or what not and we ate pizza and went to walmart then 7 11 in walmart we played in the toy section MUAHAHA funness the next day we went to this one place that looked like someone was trying to make a fort or something and we founda spray paint can so naturally we sprayed stuff muahaha then we went to the placescape and wrote stuff there too...... but my parents went and found a house they like and today they started to talk about the stuff needed to be done to this house and the new house we might get thing is we would be in Hemlock i would still go to heritage it would be a long ass drive tho......ne ways here are some pictures
(  weekend )

I don't  wanna talk about, so why is there people in this  world that   piss you off to  the point  were you just want to  scream.......you know you  do  you  kill me well....i hate people like that....i hate how i  can never  get over something little and stupid that is my disablity... i can not   get over things...i go on and on  about them  untill they   drive me   completely  MAD......im starting to  create  anger  issues  to where i scream  instead of talk and  punch  instead of listen i  can't help it   there are so many   dumb ass  people in this   world and i don't even think they relize it....i don't think they  relize how them  being so dumb and  immature can make  people so  angry.....i used to love all of my  classes im  beginning to  hate more and more  just because of the  students in the class and how they can't   shut up when the  teacher is  trying to talk to us and tell us what  to  do........My Sister being the wonderful learner she is  once yelled at a teacher for not controlling the class......and because  she was not  learning anything......I  however  yell at the class bc i can not hear the  teacher   to  learn anything  i want to pass   the 10th  grade unlike    some people  who don't  give  a rats ass if  they  fail or not .....that is another  thing that  bothers me i work my ass off trying to  get good grades and    other kids  fuck  around all day  and  get the   same  grades  i do.  WHAT THE  FUCK.......so if i  fuck around  i will get the  same  grades im getting  now.....UGH   sometimes  i just    don't   get this world...like  how come  doctors  charge us  when we are injured or  sick.....i dunno anymore  maybe im just  so mad at some people that im not  thinking   staright.......this   probably  looks like a  run on sentence with  alot of  mispelled words and  wrong grammar usage  but  i don't care....im tired and i have   2 projects to do and  2  tests  to  study for...




Goodbye,
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So jason came over today i miss that old boy ha...we watched rent and my dvd then talked to Calvin and took pictures
( Jason and Sara )

HAPPY 5 MONTHS SARA!
I had a great time with being with you today. You looked very cute in your new clothes and that purse was cool too :) I love you so much!

Love,
Calvin♥